Growing up, I always knew that I was a geek, even though I never really gave it much thought.
I spent my free time playing computer games and reading geek magazines, but it was never about anything serious.
It wasn’t until my second year of university that I started to realize I wasn’t the only one who felt this way.
I began to notice that some people seemed to enjoy being geeky, and that others were really into gaming.
The term ‘geek’ is often used as a pejorative by people who are not particularly interested in science, but in fact many people who identify as geeky are not.
And what I saw in this culture was a kind of nerd-ness that I hadn’t seen before.
There were people who had their own hobbies, they were really good at them, they weren’t just like other people who were good at other things.
And they had their interests in them, their hobbies in them.
I knew I was one of them.
And there was a definite element of curiosity about what it was like to be a geek that helped me form a strong sense of identity, even when I was in middle school.
As a kid, I felt like I was doing something different and different from everyone else.
I didn’t like being called nerd or geek.
It was just the way I was.
The only people who could call me nerd were myself and my friends, and they would say it as though they were talking about my parents.
And I’d say, ‘My parents?’
And then I’d be like, ‘Really?
They’d say ‘Yeah.’
But they were not calling me a nerd.
They were calling me ‘the nerd’ because they were trying to make it seem like I had some kind of special relationship to something.
The reason they were saying that was because I had this identity that I thought was unique and interesting.
They thought that that was cool.
And it felt good to have that identity.
And that made me feel really good, because I was able to feel myself to be part of something that was really interesting and that I had a really great identity.
And the identity I had was something I was not supposed to have.
It didn’t belong to me, and it was very much not mine.
It belonged to someone else.
And when I went through this phase, I thought that maybe I could be the one to change it, because now I was the one who was supposed to be the ‘geeks’.
But the more I looked back on it, the more it seemed like it was a really strange identity to have to change.
It’s a very unique identity.
It feels very alien.
I feel like I don’t belong anywhere, and I have to pretend that I do belong somewhere.
And the fact that I don